So, I just realized that it has been a really long time since I’ve put myself out there and I am quickly remembering why that is.
Rewind to a few weeks ago, I felt like I could take on the world. I’d been exercising every day and feeling pretty damn good about myself. I was having a great time flirting with boys and usually had a big smile on my face.
Then, I caught feelings for one. Feelings that were not reciprocated.
So now we’ve got the birth control wreaking havoc on my emotions, my MS that also makes me crazy moody and the guy I like tells me that I am not his type and that he just isn’t interested.
Well, holy fucking Niagara Falls. I cried until I had no tears left to cry. I’ve become a master at crying. I don’t even try to cry anymore and then suddenly feel tears falling down my face. I cry at commercials, songs, thoughts and heaven forbid someone says something remotely mean to me. There was once a time when I couldn’t cry in front of other people – Even at funerals. I miss that…. Now I can’t seem to stop.
It does hurt to feel like you’re not enough for someone else though. Even if at the end of the day you know that you’re pretty fucking awesome. Rejection sucks.
My MSsy Life 