While having a conversation with my friend recently, she said to me ‘Everyone comes into your life for a reason.’ I gave that some thought and decided that I loved it.
Good or bad, for a short period or a long period. What a good way to think about things. I have come across many people in my life, some I’ve wanted to let go of and others I’ve wanted to keep forever.
To think that those who are no longer in my life in this way makes me feel better. I’ve recently struggled with cutting a friend out of my life and the feelings of guilt and sadness that this decision have left me with have been very difficult on me.
Sober me has a heck of a lot more emotions rolling around inside me, which I suppose makes sense. How can you fully understand what you feel when you are drunk multiple times a week? I can’t help but overthink about things these days. I cry a lot more than I have ever before – It’s gotten weird. I used to only cry when I was alone, even when processing grief.
Just yesterday, I cried while on my after work walk and again when I was driving to my friend’s place for dinner. Last week I even cried at work. The only thing that I can compare this to is meeting a brand new person. I am learning more about myself every single day and how I feel. Apparently, I’m sad about a lot of things.
I’m not going to lie.. bitch might be crazy.
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